My eating Addiction
My eating addiction
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Today’s post is a lot more personal. Today I’m focusing on my eating problem.
Once someone manages to overcome the chains of substance addiction. There is a very high possibility that the addict could cross addict to either a behavioral addiction like excessive gym, sex, gambling etc. They may also cross addict to other substances. Some alcoholics resort to prescription meds, food etc.
I feel that I am currently at the point of having cross-addicted to food. As with all addictions, the first step to recovery is facing the denial that comes with the addiction. I suspect that I am currently at this stage right now. Typing out My eating addiction was hard for me. Typing out My eating problem seemed much easier and by simply writing this post, I realized that this is something that I’m really struggling to address.
Dealing with the denial is imperative for any disease, as hard as it may be, because we can only start dealing for problems once we are aware of the problem and can actually acknowledge that it exists.
Once I can properly start dealing with the denial, I can then develop n start tackling the underlying issues around the eating disorder I have. Right now all I know is that when I try cutting out sugar, I experience massive withdrawal.
People generally don’t just cross addict after overcoming another addiction. More often than not, people have cross-addicted because there are still deep underlying issues that have not been dealt with as yet.
The disease of addiction is cunning, baffling and powerful. The disease of addiction never goes to rest and that’s why many consider it to be a chronic illness. It’s a chronic illness similar to HIV or High blood pressure. It’s manageable and I can live a completely normal life, but constant “treatment” is required. Spiritual treatment, psychological treatment.
So this week, I have spent a lot of time trying to uncover the underlying issues behind my eating disorder. I strongly suspect that it is related to having a low esteem. (I eat compulsively to try and look as unattractive as possible.)
I’m going to be doing a lot of research on eating disorders and I will provide you guys with my findings in a blog post about eating disorders.
I will also be doing a lot of internal digging and will keep you guys posted on my progress.
Thanks for taking the time to read this post. As mentioned, this post is a lot more personal and about what’s currently going on for me.
What’s currently going on for you? I would like to hear your feedback/personal stories.